Hey, wassup fam? Everyone good? Everything fine? How is your dog doing? You don’t have one? Never mind then. I’m glad to see you again!

Today I realized that I’ve been all alone almost all my life. That’s sad. JK! That’s fucking awesome! Not because I’m lonely—that’s not so great, to be honest. But the thing is, I didn’t know that. Crazy, right? I used to think people were all around me, making demands and requesting everything out of me in exchange for not leaving me alone. Truth be told, those suckas only made a gas station out of me, hahaha. Real story, fam. People used to come by, make me do something (like help them out with a test, wash some dishes, idk, anything really), and then go away like jellyfish in the sea.

Mostly my family. To be honest with you, my friends weren’t really the type. I mostly waited for them to request something out of me, and when they didn’t, I got paranoid thinking that they didn’t like me anymore. And on top of that, I was/am completely useless and out of focus in situations where I wasn’t required to do anything. So much for being a “state of the art autonomous hipster,” huh? What is that good for if you don’t have the smallest spark of spontaneity without being stoned/drunk out of your mind?

Anyway, I’ll probably edit this post to add some more thoughts. But for now, I’m glad to say that I’m definitely going to be more present in my own life and caring less that you don’t want to be present in mine! (This last part is meant especially for those who I’ve tried so hard to make care about me and ended up being “too much” for.)

Bye!